* I have trouble grasping how some people can be so vicious, so mean hearted, putting people down and wishing hardships on them when their opinions differ from their own. I heard one man say today that our Governor deserves to get the virus and he hopes his hair falls out! (The governor recently was tested positive) He (the Governor) had asked the Pennsylvanian people to help fight against the virus by staying at home and not going out unless it was necessary. He also banned indoor restaurant dining and closed bowling alleys, gyms, movie theaters along with some other restrictions.
* Does everyone see things differently than I do? It sure seems like it!
* I feel as if I am always mad these days. I don’t want to socialize, my ears hurt from mask straps and I can’t breath because of the cloth covering my nose and mouth. My nose is always dry. The skin on my fingers is cracking because of all the washing I do.
* When was the last time I shook another person’s hand or hugged someone?
* I see people in stores and at gas stations who seem to feel as if they are better than me, they don’t need to wear a mask and it just makes me angry!
* Instead I just slink away, keeping my distance and my feelings to myself, not wanting to cause any problems. This can be very depressing!
* Some of the people I work with definitely don’t think that masks are worthwhile. They wear them on their chin, standing close to the people they are BSing with, not caring about the possibility that they might be spreading some germs around, some germs that might have the capability of killing someone. This is just the tip of the iceberg, there is so much more that is aggravating me these days.
* People borrow my tools and never replace them or else put them where I can’t find them rather than back where they got em. There are people who kiss up to the bosses, people who spend more time trying to impress them than actually working. Since they are willing to stay as many hours as needed, the bosses look at them as “wonder workers”. “Fuck em” I say!
* On the road there are the people who drive as if they are on a racetrack or in a video game. They cut in between cars, nearly clipping them in the process, going twenty or thirty miles over the speed limit. There are people who don’t know that a Yield sign means that THEY HAVE TO YIELD to the traffic they are merging into. Where did these idiots get their licenses?
* I haven’t seen or held my grandson in over 10 months! He is walking around now and the only way he knows his Pappy is as a picture on a smart phone.
* It feels like a spring being wound tighter and tighter. Eventually it will break unless I can find a way to release the tension.
* I find myself referring to people as assholes, dickheads and fuckwads no matter what their offence was. Didn’t flush the toilet? ASSHOLE! Didn’t replace a tool in the correct spot? Fucking Dick! I don’t reserve these comments just to others, no, I refer to myself also! If I drop a book or a tool on the floor, I don’t hold back, I’m just as big of a dickhead as anyone else!
* I crawl through my hours at work, bitchin’ and moaning only to go home and do the same thing. I feel sorry for my dog! The only difference is that the time at home seems to go by twice as fast! I’m tired when I get home yet I stay up. Nothing is on the boob tube but I still turn it on. I often wake up in front of it an hour or two after I turn it on. The time is gone without any recollections except sitting down.
* As I write this I’m thinking that I’ll be the only one who ever reads it. I don’t want anyone to thinking I’ve gone off the deep end. No one else could possibly be feeling the same as I am. BUT then I think about it for a while, it isn’t just me who is experiencing the problems with the virus and having to deal with restrictions on just about everything. The world is trying to deal with it!
* Others are going through the same thing as I am and I would guess that their frustration levels are raising the same as mine. There are also others whose experiences are much more difficult than mine are. People who no longer have a job to go to! People who struggle every day to figure out how to keep surviving! How about the parents who never know what is going to be happening with their children’s schools, whether or not they will be going to school or staying home. People who have seen loved ones go into a hospital, never to see them again. Then there are those that daily put their lives on the line for the rest of us, people such as doctors and nurses, EMTs, policemen and firefighters. They go to work because they are needed and don’t question it. Compared to their daily experiences, my problems are pretty small!
* But they are still there, no matter how big or small the problems are. I think it is important to recognize that. By understanding a problem, or at least realizing that there is a problem and trying to understand it, we are that much closer to overcoming it! It is important that we recognize our feelings and how important they are.
* It is sort of like wearing a mask… every little bit helps!
1 comment:
Basically my thoughts exactly. Today was really bad, Good thing my wife wasn't home. Bob took the blunt of it
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